Sunshine

May 14th, 2007

Did u know how much our life will change because of the one we loved? First big change happened to me is I am pregnant. Thank Allah, I am truly blessed and I am going to love my baby with all love I had and protect him or her? with all my strength. Conclusion is, am I going to do this alone?

Ohh husband, yes I can see that. Yeah, with my husband insyAllah.

I happened to be so stress out last week; I took one decision that entirely changes my prospective of life. You can’t depend on anyone, but yourself only.

Since my pregnancy, I cry a lot, I laugh a lot, and I suffer a lot. My job makes me unhappy, my personal life’s not getting any better, and my happiness is moving one step away from me. Cry + Happy + Suffer = I need to stop whatever makes me unhappy, and find any opportunity that could brings me laughter.

I used to sing this song whenever I’m feeling down, Survivor, but seems like a fake one because this song is particularly about this girl surviving after heartbreak (which I’m not LOL) But who cares, it’s catchy and cheer me up for a few minutes, so who cares?

I got this email from one of my colleague; horoscope test. Another crap but nothing less I try hahaha.

1.         Write the name of a person of the opposite sex.

2.        Which is your favourite colour out of red, black, blue, green, yellow?

3.        Your first initial?

4.        Your month of birth?

5.        Which colour do you like more, black or white?

6.        Name of a person of the same sex as yours.

7.        Your favourite number?

8.        Do you like Sydney or Brisbane more?

9.        Do you like a lake or the ocean more?

10.      Write down a wish (a realistic one).

When you’re done, scroll down. (Don’t cheat)

And my answers are:

1.         Write the name of a person of the opposite sex. Khairuddin

2.        Which is your favourite colour out of red, black, blue, green, yellow? Red

3.        Your first initial? N

4.        Your month of birth? May

5.        Which colour do you like more, black or white? Black

6.        Name of a person of the same sex as yours. Azah

7.        Your favourite number? 5 or 95?… 5, but i really love 9 and 5.

8.        Do you like Sydney or Brisbane more? Dun really know

9.        Do you like a lake or the ocean more? Ocean

10.      Write down a wish (a realistic one). I want to be happy, and my husband to be more understanding.

When you’re done, scroll down. (Don’t cheat)

Answers

1.         You are completely in love with this person.

2.        If you choose:

           Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.

Black - you are conservative and aggressive.

Green - your soul is relaxed and you are laid back

Blue - you are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.

Yellow- you are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

3.        If your initial is:

           A-K:  You have a lot of love to give in friendships in your life.

L-R:  You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.

           S-Z:  You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

4.        If you were born in:

Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last long and the memories will last forever.

July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

5.        If you chose…..

Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

6.        This person is your best friend.

7.        This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

8.        If you chose:

Sydney

: You like adventure.

Brisbane

: You are a laid back person.

9.        If you chose:

Lake

: You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.

Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

10. This wish will come true only if you send this to five people in one hour. Send it to ten people, and it will come true before your next birthday!

Hahahaha, now I can laugh.

I skipped lunch today. And colleagues are worried because they say I looked paler these days. And I got mc yesterday. The doctor said “I cannot give u anything stronger because u r pregnant, and please continue with these medication.” “Pregnancy’s always like this for the first three months”… even the doctors cannot help ;(…

Wish I can go watch a movie tonight.