Sunshine
Did u know how much our life will change because of the one we loved? First big change happened to me is I am pregnant. Thank Allah, I am truly blessed and I am going to love my baby with all love I had and protect him or her? with all my strength. Conclusion is, am I going to do this alone?
Ohh husband, yes I can see that. Yeah, with my husband insyAllah.
I happened to be so stress out last week; I took one decision that entirely changes my prospective of life. You can’t depend on anyone, but yourself only.
Since my pregnancy, I cry a lot, I laugh a lot, and I suffer a lot. My job makes me unhappy, my personal life’s not getting any better, and my happiness is moving one step away from me. Cry + Happy + Suffer = I need to stop whatever makes me unhappy, and find any opportunity that could brings me laughter.
I used to sing this song whenever I’m feeling down, Survivor, but seems like a fake one because this song is particularly about this girl surviving after heartbreak (which I’m not LOL) But who cares, it’s catchy and cheer me up for a few minutes, so who cares?
I got this email from one of my colleague; horoscope test. Another crap but nothing less I try hahaha.
1. Write the name of a person of the opposite sex.
2. Which is your favourite colour out of red, black, blue, green, yellow?
3. Your first initial?
4. Your month of birth?
5. Which colour do you like more, black or white?
6. Name of a person of the same sex as yours.
7. Your favourite number?
8. Do you like Sydney or Brisbane more?
9. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
10. Write down a wish (a realistic one).
When you’re done, scroll down. (Don’t cheat)
And my answers are:
1. Write the name of a person of the opposite sex. Khairuddin
2. Which is your favourite colour out of red, black, blue, green, yellow? Red
3. Your first initial? N
4. Your month of birth? May
5. Which colour do you like more, black or white? Black
6. Name of a person of the same sex as yours. Azah
7. Your favourite number? 5 or 95?… 5, but i really love 9 and 5.
8. Do you like Sydney or Brisbane more? Dun really know
9. Do you like a lake or the ocean more? Ocean
10. Write down a wish (a realistic one). I want to be happy, and my husband to be more understanding.
When you’re done, scroll down. (Don’t cheat)
Answers
1. You are completely in love with this person.
2. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - you are conservative and aggressive.
Green - your soul is relaxed and you are laid back
Blue - you are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow- you are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.
3. If your initial is:
A-K: You have a lot of love to give in friendships in your life.
L-R: You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.
4. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last long and the memories will last forever.
July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.
5. If you chose…..
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.
6. This person is your best friend.
7. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.
8. If you chose:
Sydney
: You like adventure.
Brisbane
: You are a laid back person.
9. If you chose:
Lake
: You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.
10. This wish will come true only if you send this to five people in one hour. Send it to ten people, and it will come true before your next birthday!
Hahahaha, now I can laugh.
I skipped lunch today. And colleagues are worried because they say I looked paler these days. And I got mc yesterday. The doctor said “I cannot give u anything stronger because u r pregnant, and please continue with these medication.” “Pregnancy’s always like this for the first three months”… even the doctors cannot help ;(…
Wish I can go watch a movie tonight.
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cheer up dear!! think positive..everything will be ok!! jgn stress..tak elok utk baby n yourself..
congrats on ur pregnancy!
thanx ed, really appreciate it. ninie memang stress sgt, and need a break… wish ninie boleh quit job skrg and be happy again…
to remus, hehehe thanx. really happy for my new ‘life’
Dear Aninie..firstly congratulation to hear that u’re pregnant. I must say, this is the period of time you must really take good care of your health.
I heard many of our support technical members work very stressful and quit their job. Mostly claim our boss are insane and heartless which I very agree on this. Lately, I’m very stressful too. So many ppl claim that they’re my boss..in the office oredi got 4 director and all have different mindset plus one immediate superior. Imagine two wanna go to moon, one wanna goto the sun, one wanna stay and one more wanna goto Pluto. But somehow, I face them strongly and patiently..I believe they have their reason and I’m humble of myself because I’m a newly fresh grad working in the society therefore I take all advices and comments on me so that I can accelerate myself forward.
I believe in this era, we’re talking about survival of kingdom or kingdom of survival..haha..I dunno which one la..but mainly talking about ‘only the strong will survive and those are weak will be taken over’. I also believe there are so many job out there which are better and offer much more higher pay. But how are we assure that the boss attitude are better and we might end up they’re even worse than current one. We might end up hooping around to look for better boss and easier job.
To tell you the truth, I had been searching for new job and even attended a few interview. I end up to stay back to where I am now. Time does not allow me to transfer yet. I’m waiting patiently and steadily that one day I can break free and that day I promise to myself I wanna be someone different..
Since we’re complaining and cursing everyone around. Its better that we keep it in our mind and be someone whose better in the future if we have opportunity to run our own business or become leader to a bunch of members. Here again I believe, we have our ability and expectation towards our group members.
Very sorry for being mumbling so much. But i would like to share this, I had been working for university project for continuous for 3 years. Every year when its ended, I said I never wanna involve anymore but indeed i keep on. My good friend every time give me encouragement words and I end up 3 years. Now I look back, I realize that I had done so much with my group. The new leader that taken over my throne have problem to achieve the required standard. Of course, this is a lost to university and they offered me place to do postgrd with good allowances early of this year which is too late now bcos I had started mine here.
Of course we need that ’somebody’ to understand our need and emotion too..Imagine if anyone can working, studying and in the same time getting married with so many things to be arrange and that ’somebody’ is complaint that dint spend most of the time with her?? haha…I’m strongly believe and time will tell..”Nothing is impossible”
Notty, thanx for ur words of encouragement. All our bosses are insane and one IMPOSSIBLE day, they will treat us better
if i were u, I will definitely get the opportunity to get out from here, but frankly i don’t want to quit for the sake of quitting…
Yeah, that’s what we are, Survival of the kingdom hahaha.
U know today I even sent an email to one of our manager, subject: Why we should go home on time. The email was from u and I can see the manager looking at me today and smile (maybe he does understand but never really wants to help us)
so, go on strong SURVIVORS!!! yeah!
WAHHH LAU !!! How can u forward that email to yur manager?? Yea..quitting is not the solution and sending that email too… I agree with you and I’m waiting for good opportunity and timing now. Everything need a good planning and strategy before we make up our mind.
Yesterday our director rejected my drawing. All his messages and requirement passed to my immediate superior. But the info pass on to me is lacking and he rejected my design..STUPID. In fact both of them make a mistake too..haha..Today I went to METALTech Exhibition in PWTC..Its an eyes opener which see so many hightech machine which we dont have. I cant believe that, our old and rusty machine wanna upgrade la..how long somemore u expect the old machine to serve us??
I was wondering also, when only we’re going to purchase one of those machine. I think most probably its day dreaming..therefore it ends at 6.30pm when stepped out from PWTC. hahaa..
Aninie, when united we’re strong. So if u think of quitting jgn lupa ajak kawan2..cos i might join in. But not in this nearest time..If my plan goes well, middle of next year I gonna quit looo…
hahahah, wont forget u. united we are strong. nnt we all blah skaligus, baru our bosses tau hahahah
Jgn lupa inform aku awal2 tau..nanti aku sorg yg sangkut kat cni…
ninie..stress ke keje skang ni..nape senyap aje.contact la aku….hows yr health jgn pk sgt psl keje.pk keje mmg buat stress aje
heheh aku ya amat ler bz nyer. sorry lama tak kontek. nk sgt jumpe ko tp aduhai masa tak mengizinkan…
Ninie..ingat tak last year time ni kite report for our job here. Masa berlalu sangatla pantas..dah 1 year kat cni..keje aku kat cni smakin mengarut la..kecewa aku kat cni..
aah la,masa tu 1st june kan…alaaa, ader sorg lagi budak technical support nak quit…siape?coming soon.
In the End we all Quit one way or the other and found better jobs with better pay and better environment and all that. And that who you know get what they deserve. Guess this word called Karma is so true